six conversations

i am talking to max and he has just woken up and it is tense and i am worried because there has been an undiscussed tension over the past few days
he says that he loves me twice and i say it in reply and it is not the same when we are apart

i am talking to the entire math class and explaining exponent rules to them and ms noonan and anshul are looking at me with the "when did she get intelligent" face
it is finally a topic that i understand and i'll embrace it all i want

i am talking to paula because i did not do the bio homework and she is two periods before so he won't suspect a thing
she groans as she hands me over the answer sheet

i am talking to my dad as i shake the snow out of my hair and wipe off my ice-crusted glasses and consider putting on dry clothes but realize pneumonia would mean not going outside for a week
he asks me if i had a nice walk home and i almost slap him but laugh instead

i am talking to phil and he is in psychological trouble and he missed school today because he did something stupid
he thinks i can't tell but i can see right through his bullshit

i am talking to freddi about her skills/sped class and realizing that we are becoming friends
this isn't a problem as long as she stops texting me in english

i am talking to alex schuetz about a game called don't starve where you try not to starve and i am realizing how bad i am at the talking thing
he has a girlfriend now and i have to admit i was like what for a second