at about 4:30 i heard a voice in my head saying ‘tenth he came in tenth’ and i tried to push it away and then he called 24 minutes later

i am tired i feel nauseous and my head hurts and i miss him the countdown is still at 132 days (18 weeks 6 days 5 hours)

sophia’s kissed more people than me as i found out today

they also completely wrapped me in duct tape

platonic makeouts are not a thing that happen here

although even if they did i doubt it would be a thing that i’d partake again who the fuck would kiss me

there is also the matter of alex schuetz

like i am very much platonically and romantically attracted to him but not?? sexually?? at all????? usually when i’m romantically attracted to someone sexually comes along but this time it’s like he’s a fabulous friend and i’d like to be all coupley with him but i wouldn’t fuck him

there is also the problem that people here don’t get polyamorous relationships as a thing like when i tell people about max the immediate assumption is “yep she’s taken” when no i really am not

my sister was doing the thing again this morning where she talks about how fat i am that is what i left the house to

i am slowly realizing that i’m becoming more food nazi to myself than my mom like i did not want to eat anything today but susan makes me i had a bowl full of chili and i feel awful and fat and disgusting

teach your child a mindset and they’ll carry it for life

i want to go on minecraft real bad
why is this font color fucked up