freddi told me i can't become too dependent on him which is entirely true
because when i am not talking to him i am thinking of him and when i'm not thinking of him i'm usually asleep
please forget me are three words that i think i'm going to hate
i look really exceptionally cute today but no one's going to give any fucks because he's the only one who's ever found me pretty
i think i can pull off this girl thing if i try hard enough
god like? on one hand i want to have really gorgeous long straight hair and wear makeup and be a Real Girl and on another hand i want to cut my hair short and bind my chest and never hear the name [removed] ever again and on a third hand i want to keep doing exactly what i'm doing except that is a lie
i don't like this not at all
it's a hell of a lot easier to do the first one than the second and so far this year my bullshit's been working and look who doesn't openly have dysphoria anymore!!!11
today was tchaik 5 (the concert) and in seven minutes i'm leaving for tchaik 5 (the afterparty at the outback steakhouse on route 22) so any stalkers i have come meet up with me i'm the one wearing the cat hat and reddish brown eyeshadow
there's a bar of rest in the third movement and i have a hacking cough and i might've broken the silence and vicki giggled
she and her sister literally only own floor length skirts, graphic t-shirts, and concert blacks i asked her
they're the best two musicians in the orchestra even better than william chang
van beveren told us that the new music would be up on the site and it's not that lying cunt
i should probably go now
let's go! (-victoria)